| Location | Philadelphia,p.a |
| Age | 0 |
| Cause of Death | Premature Birth |
| Date of Birth | 29/03/2009 |
| Date of Death | 29/03/2009 |
| Visitors | 2,274 since 08/06/2009 |
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This is the first time after the lost of my baby that I look at his pictures, Not because I didn't wanted to, because I tried to evade pain. I notice there is nothing that can take that pain away. There is nothing I can do for my baby, I feel so empty inside me and I miss my baby inside me, I miss him so much there is no way I can write this without tears. I dont have any other kids and sometimes I wonder If i can at least keep one inside me. I was 16 weeks pregnant when I lost my baby. I was spotting since i was 13 weeks but every time i went to the hospital everything was good with the baby. A thurday I started having a very bad back ache and since everytime i went to the hospital everything was fine i decided to take the pain but on a saturday when i stood up to take a hot shower to calm the pain my water broke, I broke down in tears knowing that I would lose my baby it was a fact the liquid in which he was swimming was running down my legs I instantly felt in a nightmare and imagined the whole situation... not having my baby anymore! He was not only my baby he was a sign of my fertily, he was my strengh and a assurance of my happiness! Nurses left me alone with my husband in the room while i was in horrible back pain I pushed and screamed for a doctor they didnt got there i reached down and i felt the head of the baby, I couldn't stop telling my husband " Im feeling the head, oh my baby , oh my God!" I pushed harder while holding the baby's head until i got him out then the nurses arrived and saw me with the baby in hand, the try to get him out but the couldn't placenta was still inside me and the didn't wanted to cut the umbilical cord. While that the put my baby in a kinda pink basinet[ you will see in the pictures] and waited until I pushed everything out. i didnt felt any pain when i pushed the baby I wanted him in my hands! After all that, we got to hold him for a long time we kissed him hugged him, I rubbed my nose against his, I wanteed to keep him for ever. That wasn't posible of course. We didnt have the money to bury him it was 1,500 we decided to cremate him and put his beautiful ashes in a keepsake marble kinda box. He is in the house now, every time I hold the box against my chest I feel an overwhelming feeling in my chest I love that baby, my son, I LOVE HIM! Sorry for writing a lot!! God bless every person who read this!xoxo
P.s I still suffering the lost of my baby niece Mariely she was 4 months old http://mariely-tomey.gonetoosoon.org/memorial/
I wish I could go back in time,
to see you again
to hug you and never let you go.
But I understand that your time has arrive
That God has called you
That the way he wanted it to be
But I never thought it would hurt so much.
Little Angel Unknown
A little angel unknown I, am, my place is as an angel in a secret land.
I didn't have a name as such, you didn't get the chance,
I wasn't meant to live on earth just touch you by the hand.
I've been sent to touch your lives and I know you’ll think that cruel,
but its only special people that are chosen exceptions to the rules.
I knew you would love me from the very start,
from that first sighting & beating of my tiny heart,
so I know that it will hurt you that you have to say goodbye,
but I am your guardian angel now and I'll dry the tears from your eyes.
I'll be there by your side wherever you now go,
I will hear you speak of me often & what I might have been if I'd grown,
I'll be the special angel in the picture that you have,
I'll remind you of my brother & my dad,
I'll have your little features all of you as one
& I'll love you always as my special mum.
You might not have got to see me as a living breathing thing,
but I'll be the ribbon around your heart and my love will be deep within,
this pleasure I promise will be mine,
to be your guardian angel from now until the end of time.
I'll gift you with my presence every night within your dreams,
walk always as your special unknown angel
gifted to you within just for a short while,
so think of me often and smile,
For I, am your very own special unknown gifted child.
[by:ronnie]
Sometimes I wish there was no more sorrow in my soul, so i could really express beautiful words. I cant, when my heart it still in pain. I love my baby angel. 2 years today. Te amo!
We thought of you with love today
We thought of you with love today but that is nothing new
We thought about you yesterday
and days before that too
We think of you in silence we often speak your name
Now all we have are memories
and your picture in a frame
Your memory is our keepsake with which we'll never part
God has you in his keeping
we have you in our heart.
~~~
Fairies Wait
Words and Music By: Irmengarde C. Horn
Adapted By: Terry Kluytmans
Copyright © 1999 KIDiddles.com
When the sun goes down,
And the moon comes up,
And the stars twinkle in the skies,
Then, my little one,
It's time for bed
And time to close your eyes;
For the fairies wait
Till you're fast asleep
To bring sweet dreams to you,
And the moon and stars
Through the windows peep
To see what the fairies will do.
A Birthday In Heaven - by Kris Smith
I heard you crying yesterday,
And felt your heart-sent love.
So I’m sending you this message
Now, from Heaven up above.
You’re wondering if I’ll celebrate
My Birthday (way up here).
I know you’re missing me today
I feel your essence near.
God planned a special day for me,
He told me with a wink.
He’d ordered me a special cake
(It’s Angel food, I think).
Balloons will fill the streets for me,
They float up through the clouds.
And we have lots of friends up here
That make us laugh out loud.
There is a Birthday carousel,
Jewelled horses ride the wind,
With music playing, oh so sweet…
The magic never ends.
I’ve made so many friends, you see
We laugh and play and sing.
We ride our bikes and play jump rope
And sleep in Angel’s wings.
We’ll have our cake and ice cream
And open gifts - SURPRISE!
But we don’t blow out our candles here
Instead, they light the skies.
With love from your little Angel XX
To The Child In My Heart - by Unknown Author
Precious, tiny, sweet little one
You will always be to me.
So perfect, pure and innocent,
Just as you were meant to be.
We dreamed of you and your life
And all that it would be
We waited and longed for you
To come and join our family.
We never had the chance to play,
To laugh, to rock, to wiggle.
We long to hold you, touch you now
And listen to your giggle.
I'll always be your Mother,
He'll always be your Dad.
You'll always be our child,
The baby that we had.
You are gone, yet you are here,
We'll sense you everywhere
You are our sorrow and our joy,
There's love in every tear.
Just know our love goes deep and strong,
We'll forget you never!!!
The child we had, but never had,
And yet will have forever.
for all babies born sleeping
ββββββββ
ββββββββ
βββββββββββ
βββββββββββ
βββββββββββ
ββββββββPlease put this on your
ββββββββpage for all the
ββββββββbabies that were
ββββββββborn asleep
The Pit of Grief
The day my child died, I fell into the pit of grief. My friends watched me struggle through daily life; waiting for the person I once was to arise from the pit, not realizing 'she' is gone forever.
The pit is full of darkness, heartache and despair; it paralyzes your thoughts, movements and ability to ration. The pit leaves you forever changed, unable to surface the person you once were.
Some of my pre-grief friends gather around the top of the pit, waiting for the old me to appear before their eyes, not understanding what’s taking me so long to emerge. After all, in their eyes, I’ve been in the pit for quite sometime. Yet in my eyes, it seems as if I fell in only yesterday.
Not all of my pre-grief friends are gathered around the top of the pit. Some are helping me with the climb out of the darkness. They climb side by side with me from time to time, but mostly they climb ahead of me, waiting patiently at each plateau. Even with these friends I sometimes wonder if they are also waiting for the pre-grief me to magically appear before their eyes.
Then there are the casual acquaintances, you know the ones who say 'Hi, how are you?' when they really don't care or really want to know. These are the people who sigh in relief, that is my child who died and not theirs. You know ... the 'better them, than me' attitude.
My post-grief friends are the ones who climb with me, side by side, inch by inch, out of the pit of grief. They have no way of comparing the pit climbed to the pre-grief person I once was. You see, they started at the bottom of the pit with me. They are able to reassure me when I need reassurance, rest when I need resting, and encourage me to move forward when I don't have the strength. They have no expectations, no memories and no recollection of how I 'should' be. They want me to get better, to smile more often and find joy in life, but they also accepted the person I’ve become. The 'person' who is emerging from the pit.
Unknown Author
After making his new angel
God looked down from above
He happened to notice you
And all he saw was love
He said to the angel
"I need to send you there,
There is where you'll be loved
Where you will feel the most care"
So God sent you this angel
To nuture, love and grow
But not an angel you could keep
For it would soon be time to go
You taught this angel wonderful things
That only a mother could do
Your angel learnt compassion and warmth
Whilst living inside of you
This angel was one that would have to leave
One you'd hardly hold
One you'd mourn for the rest of your life
If the truth be told
God realised you'd miss this angel
And so he gave you tears
A way to express your love
Over the coming years
Then God called this angel home
And asked what the angel had learned
The angel said a love so strong
In a mothers heart had burned
"I learnt that love can exist
Even when I've gone
For love never dies you see
I've learnt it carries on"
God looked at the angel
Smiled and gave a sigh
"You have learnt a valuable lesson
That often passes people by"
The angel looked at God and asked
"Why is my mummy so sad?"
God answered "when I called you home
It made her miss what she had;
But soon she will realise
I sent her a special gift
I sent her you my child
Although I took you swift
Her love for you will never wain
You will remain ever in her heart
You will be in her thoughts and feelings
Like you've never been apart"
The angel asked God what this mummy did
To deserve such a wonderful thing
"Your mummy is so pure of heart
she makes the angels want to sing"
The angel thanked God
For giving him such a lovely mum
So you see in loving your angel
Your work is truly done
God didn't wish to punish you
He only showed you love
He gave you a special angel
A gift from heaven above
He knows only a special person
Can be an angel mum
He made us in his image
He lost his only son
He know's just how your heart aches
And wished that wasn't so
But your angel is so happy
In God's heavenly home
So when you think of your angel
Please just smile, don't weep
Be proud that God chose you
To love an angel so sweet
When your heart feels empty
Your life so full of despair
Remember God picked you!
Because no-one else compares
(Author Unknown)
be strong for your baby!! he is peacefully in heaven patiently waiting for you love x stay strong for him
god bless you.x
Such a beautiful little boy,with such loving parents.
My love and prayers go out to you and your family,until you hold your littleman again.xxx
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